Food?

Why does almost everybody around display a not caring about food? Yes they do eat but it’s always me who has to push for food, and yes I say push because I can last without food for a while but then I loose myself and it’s panic! I need food now! My physical being is almost like a clock and I need food three times a day, at least, and I mean real food. I can not function on cakes or bread or whatever. Eventually I need food and yes like a clock it’s in the middle of the day and later at 5-6 in the evening.

Right now I feel alone in this. The people I meet does not seam to bother about the time for food. They can go on and live on cakes, bread or chocolate and I can not. What happens many times is that I try to present the will and opportunity to eat but time passes and they don’t react to this. Then I get in to forcefull mode where I need to eat and now. This may not be the most pleasant way but my need for food is not understood. Yes it cost money, yes it’s demanding but I get scared and feel so tired and lost in myself that the only thing that helps is real food.

I don’t want to impose this on other people but I have a hard time functioning with many besauce of this dilemma.

And Yes I do like food and one of the most important things for me with a meal is being together and that’s where my problem starts. The longing to be together makes me stretch myself and my needs to the point where it becomes a problem.

My will and longing is to be together, always.

Love Tsamsiyu